Fighting Fatigue

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2CO 4:16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17 For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18 So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Stark reminder of how weak my flesh is after 2 weeks of waking up early to seek the Lord. By God's grace, I managed to pull myself out of bed each day for the precious time of meeting up with our Savior. The time spent is priceless, as I can sense the Lord renewing my inner man, my faith, my relationship with Him. It is definitely a spiritual discipline worth pursuing.

But everything comes with a price. 2 weeks of reduced sleep is beginning to take its toll on my body. In the past few days, I have been waking up to headaches, body aches as my body adjusts itself to the new regime. It's been tough getting through the entire day, esp on days with hectic work schedules and late nights. The spirit is refreshed, but the body feels like quiting and dying on me.....

Part of me wants to give up this practice of waking up early....I mean, it is hard work....do I need to be so religious about it....what if i do it every other day instead? Why make life tougher than it already is.... Am I not entitled to more sleep and rest?

As usual, as fatigue creeps in, so does the threat of depression.

It is tempting to give up....But deep inside I know I need to persevere. As Ps YC put it so well...This Day We Fight! I believe that I am doing the right thing to seek and lay hold of God each day for my life, family and ministry, hence the mounting spiritual battles that begin to rage in my mind and body. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak...that is a fact. The solution? In Matt 26:41:

Mt 26:41 "Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak."

The more weary I become, the paradox is that the more I need to seek the Lord :

MT 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

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So I must press on. Giving up is a big no-no.... the spiritually stakes are high here. I am contending for the lives of family and loved ones; giving up will be exactly what the enemy wants. I cannot give him that satisfaction!

It is going to be tough in the coming weeks, but I am game for this spiritual fight, and I intend to win it! As Paul had written:
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PHP 3:12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

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So onward Christian Soldier!

(PS. Please do pray for me if you read this entry! It will be most appreciated! Thank you!)_

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