Apart from the Lord, I have No Good Thing

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David said in the Book of Psalms:

I said to the LORD, "You are my Lord;
apart from you I have no good thing."

(Psalm 16:2)

How true that is! I had an experience today that I am not proud of, but it so clearly demonstrated the truth of David's words.

It all happened this evening on the way back from work. I was feeling fine, not stressed, frustrated or anything. It was just a routine trip home. I was at the MRT station. As the train pulled into the station and the doors opened, I waited to board while the passengers disembark. A lady passenger in a hurry then tried to push me aside to get off the train.

Somehow, that caused something to snap within me. "Mr Hyde" suddenly took over. Instead of stepping aside, I purposely stood to block her exit. She glared at me. I glared back, and if looks could kill, she would be dead already. She tried to push me aside, and I literally elbowed her hard enough to cause her to stagger off the train.

A couple of passengers looked at me, probably with disapproval, but I glared at them with such venom that they looked away from me in double quick time.

For a while, it actually felt good.. I liked to demonstrate that "no one messes with me and gets away with it!" But it did not take long for remorse to set in and I promptly asked God for forgiveness and cleansing.

This incident just revealed once again just what I am really like. Indeed, without Christ's redemption and the Spirit's restrain, what kind of man will I be?

Need to watch out for this problem of the "red mist". May the Lord's protection be with me at all times!

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